The pain I am feeling every moment through this decision to separate is so terrible. I do not want the separation, but he does. I can’t stop myself from trying to picture future moments without him. We were outside shoveling and playing in the snow with our 11 year old tonight. All I kept thinking of is that these times are limited and my poor son will not have this at this time next year because his father will be moved out in just a few months. My heart is absolutely broken!