I think I understand what you’re saying. When I was younger, I went through similar feelings of attachment. I think I was looking for a mother figure and was desperate to have an emotionally intimate relationship. Sometimes, even strangers gave off a vibe that attracted me to them and it freaked me out.

I’ve never stalked someone, but I’ve googled them online.

I’m 50 now, and I don’t have these feelings very often anymore. I sometimes have the feeling that I love my pdoc (as a sister).

I’m not sure what it is. I have a history of childhood trauma and I did not get my needs met by my parents. I feel like that’s part of it. I have ocd and that may contribute.