Had a disastrous last game at Scrabble club tonight. It was my fault. I pursued some bad strategy i've been trying to rid myself of for fifteen years called "fishing," to do with trying for the big plays. It's high-risk. It's hard to let go of because i made such a huge investment in it before i knew it was bad strategy. If i would just play more naturally i would do better. But i keep getting sucked into the fishing. It works sometimes so i guess i'm caught in the throes of intermittent rewards. I was playing an elite player tho, so he just kept shutting me down and shutting me down and i lost badly. I should have known better than to fish against him.

I feel bad for being such a mediocre player. I did well in the stats tho. I was practically the only woman who made the lists!

January is almost over, then a short February, then March with the time-change and longer warmer days, then Spring!