I don't think I have had childhood trauma... my therapist thinks it's part of my personality in regards to bipolar.

I will cry if someone I attach to if you like leaves ie workers of any sort in the mental health world. I try to not do it in front of them. I do it after my appt with them. I will be in a depression if you like for a week then it's still on my mind for a long time after that.

I followed my Dramatherapist all the way to the train station where I had to leave her. I was heart broken. I stalk people online all the time too.

It's like a death to me. It's like I'm grieving. It's like I'll never get over it (even though I know I can and will).

I worry its gonna get worse.... I just want to be able to say goodbye to people without getting emotional.

I worry when my time ends with my Therapist etc will I survive this I don't know?