Dear Chocopiano27,

I am so very sorry you are in the situation you described. Many years ago I was in a somewhat similar situation and it was just awful. The memories of that time are still very vivid to me. One of the awful things about depression is that it can feed itself and cause one to have serious self-doubts. I wish I knew what to say that would be helpful to you. I think you are very heroic to be dealing with depression and the issues you mentioned. My deepest apologies for not having anything helpful to offer. Sometimes when one wants to be helpful, one simply does not know how. Hopefully others here will prove more helpful to you. You deserve a life of meaning where you can experience real peace of mind and joy of living!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen