So Sorry that you're struggling. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that it seems more like an attachment issue. i can relate since i often clinge to people i care about as Well or even people that i don't really know to the point of looking them up online. Things are slightly better now, although i am not sure what has changed. Hopefully talking about this with your therapist will give you some guidance but please don't be hard on yourself. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miss Laura, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!