Oh Nammu, I am so sorry. That's hard being left with so much wondering. I hope you can get the answers you need.

Soupe, you are doing great. It's a BIG transition. Wishing you continued successes in navigating it.

I'm still very upset about the shelf situation. I should find out today, good vibes much appreciated. I've lost numerous hours of sleep on this. I've cried some. It seems like the more I've indicated how much I wanted it, the more determined to give it to someone else she's been. I'm finding it all very hurtful and I don't understand why this dynamic is happening. We've always gotten along like gangbusters. Where is this coming from??!