I'm having a dark day today. I'm very tired even though I got about 10 hours of sleep. I'm tired most days. And what makes me feel worse than anything is that I'm having a hard time losing weight. This past week, I've gained weight. It breaks my spirit. I'm back to thinking that I'm better off not being here. I know my doctor mentioned Latuda. But she said most insurances don't pay for it. I think my doctor just needs to try a different med. I feel frustrated. I can't drive to a city an hour away to pick up samples every month. I don't like driving in big cities. I don't know what I will do. Maybe I should switch providers.