I have been SI'ing for 9 years and there is only a small (unconscious) part of me that wants to stop. It's difficult because it becomes part of you--- an identity of sorts-- it's really hard to let go of that. I'm struggling with the same thing. So far I have not been very succesful in stopping because I ask for help, but then push away everyone's suggestions because they don't seem to address the magnitude of the problem.

Stay safe, ok?