Sometimes I don't know what my problem is... My coworkers invited me over so we could all dye our hair. I texted one of them today that I had hurt my ankle and couldn't come. I just didn't want to deal with people today. I like these coworkers and I want to dye my hair, but I felt so drained today and all I wanted to do was draw and play with my art supplies. And then some random guy on my dating website asked me if I wanted to hang out tonight-- I told him I needed more notice than this. It's just that I didn't want to deal with the traffic and parking in Denver, on top of the anxiety of being on a first date with someone; always assuming we actually found a place with a table for us to sit down. I know these all sound like excuses, and I feel somewhat guilty. Not so much about the guy, because he just sounded desperate. More about my coworkers. And the sad thing is, this is common; I get invited to places and then I cop out at the last minute. It's rude and wrong of me, I just don't want to deal with the hassle. I always feel like people won't really like me once they really get to know me. I feel like they just like the facade that I put up for people. Am I a bad person?