I had a very rough start at work today. At 8:15 I felt like if I didn’t self harm I would explode, but since I work in a behavior school there are no sharp objects, not even safety pins. Who would have thought it would protect vulnerable staff as well? Anyway I actually was inspired by a student. He was removed from his home again yesterday but he came online to school anyway. He said he was having a bad day (obviously) but he would get all his schoolwork done. He didn’t want his bad mood to ruin his work. He just wanted us to know so if he was quiet we wouldn’t blame him for not participating. I figured if he could do it I could, you know? We might not be fighting exactly the same fight but we’re all in this together, you know? So I picked my head up and although it was tough I made it through the day. I even got my work done during the prep period, even though it was insanely hard coming up with sentence examples for connotation. I only got four days worth done but there’s a nor’easter coming through on Sunday night so we may not have school on Monday anyway. Perfect!

Since I could not bring myself to go grocery shopping last weekend or at any point this week we have no choice but to go tomorrow. Because of the snow possibility it will be even more insane than it usually is on a Saturday morning. I’m picking the least difficult grocery store, the discount one. It doesn’t have everything but it has what we need and the cashiers are very fast so even with long lines it doesnt take nearly as long as the two big box stores. Plus, it’s cheap!

So hopefully I’ll buck up tomorrow. I may or may not have a panic attack tonight. No point worrying about it now though.