I know, I'm crying writing to you right now it means a lot to me. I have come to the conclusion that my life won't be what I expected it to be. My degree is almost worthless. I was top of my class academically and I've had to drop out of everything everytime due to these issues. And the ones who slacked now have full-time job and quality of life I always wanted.

Usually girls are not interested in me. People I like never like me back. Careers I want usually never end up happening. I have no friends, mainly because if they knew about how flawed and defective I am they wouldn't want to be friends with me.

I just worked so hard....So hard and now for me to get a job I have to apply for jobs that don't even require a degree and it makes me feel all my efforts were worthless. I feel worthless.