No time spent studying is time wasted in my opinion but i can certainly understand why you'd feel hurt by not doing what you most Love. i really wish i could Help or do something but unfortunately sometimes we just need to accept certain things that happen in our Lives and learn how to deal with them. Please remember that it was NOT your fault this is happening and Please do not give up Hope for a better Life. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @NeedHelp104, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!