Sleep can be apealing, but death is just another dead end.

What seems to me to be missing from your portfolio is exactly what you have mentioned, emotional stability. Perhaps therapy would help
I'm pretty new here myself, but I think you can find some help on this site, and maybe some pointers as where to go next. There is a self-test, might help doing that one, it gives you a list of potential (and only that) issues you might have.

I hope you'll find a job soon. Know that it's not your lack of skill or grades that is inhibiting it, it's this damned pandemic. If it weren't, you would probably get a job, but as things are, you might as well use the time you have to find a way to cope with your emotions and underlying issues. It is time well spent and will help you in all aspects of your life.