I am sorry, this is just rough. Isn’t it? Covid isolation causes a lot of mental health issues.

I don’t have other options but face risks every day. I work in person. With people. No other options. So because I am exposed to risk at work every day I am not particularly limiting myself what I am exposed to outside of work. I go places. Within my state guidelines. Like restaurants are closed. So I don’t go. But if they are open, we occasionally go. Or get carry out. Restaurants will reopen soon with 25% capacity. Well we will likely go. Two of my girlfriends do not go out to eat during covid but they also about ten years older than me. We haven’t been going to the gym. Well they are partially open. I didn’t have my vaccine yet. My state is lagging

My daughter says that we might die of covid but we can’t live like we are already dead. So we can do a bit of something. Within guidelines and reason. My dad is 83 and we can’t keep him at home. He goes places here and there and picked up a side job few years back. He did so he won’t get depressed. It gets him out of the house. He also does a lot of projects around the house. On one hand we don’t want him to do any of it. On the other hand, he’d be very depressed if he didn’t go anywhere or had no projects to do.

It’s such rough times. I’ve been feeling down myself. I watch too much tv, eat too much and gained obscene amount of weight. It’s tough

I watched a movie today that was quite profound and for whatever reason it made me cry inconsolable. I realized it wasn’t even about the movie. Just a release of built up struggle with covid