I can go months in this kind of sub hypo state where I can be extremely euphoric energetic, humorous etc. During this time I socialize but I don’t necessarily feel connected to those people. Then if my mood drops or it goes into a state of like agitation anger etc. being around people can be pure torture. So then I lose the “friendships” I developed during that semi elevated state. Never married or have been in a long relationship. Having to fake being happy at work is tough enough without having to do so at home too. I have a dog ...so there’s that. Go me.