You sure seem to know exactly what I'm talking about. Your daughter speaks with the voice of the still young. I don't think it's possible for the young to hide from COVID the way more mature folk feel they have to. You must worry about your dad, but I think you are correct to respect his choices.
I console myself with the thought that this won't last forever. However, I am becoming physically deconditioned from inactivity. A few more months of this, and I may sink down to a level I won't ever come back from. I should keep busy around the house. There's enough to do around here. Just keeping up with the chores that need doing would keep me reasonably active. But I'm doing next to nothing. Boxes of Christmas decorations are still piledup in the livingroom. I need to put them away in my outside storage closet. Just can't seem to make myself.
I could hardly eat dinner. I take an antidepressant. It helps. I wonder if adding another med would help, but I don't have much interest in pursuing that either.
Though I slept late today, already I want to go to bed. I'm sick of watching TV. Plenty of other things I could do . . . but they'ld require some effort on my part.
Depression blows over. Somehow I'm afraid this won't.
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