My texts to him last night - I cannot help myself it seems. He keeps using the police as his excuse, and he keeps saying he was not himself after that.

So I texted him this:

If you were not yourself as you so claim after I called the police then why on earth did you act as though everything was great there on afterwards, and why on earth were you showering me with love if you were so hurt and angry? And why on earth if everything was not great did you make love to me that night and have a great time with me? Like I said, you’re full of s-h-i-t and you are lying. You just want to make me partially responsible, which does not fly with me. I call BS on all of it.

You always promised me you would let me know if there was a problem. You did not. You went behind my back instead and did something that you knew would hurt me the very most and cause me to leave you. I think you use the police as a nice excuse and a way to make me partially responsible for YOUR choice to be unfaithful. I am NOT responsible. And you acted as though everything was fine. It's all a load of bull crap - all of it.

No need to reply to this in the morning. I do not want a reply except for when you are arriving and leaving. Thank you.