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Jan 31, 2021, 11:49 AM
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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
A year ago I was placed involuntarily in a psychiatric hospital but first I was in the ER. The ER doctor went out of his way to be mean to me. He was almost yelling at me. He had trouble controlling his voice. It was shaky because he was so mad at me. I was there for self harm but he treated me like a criminal. He lied about me. Said I was suicidal when I wasn't. Said some other stuff too that ended up in my medical records.
Anyway my one year anniversary of my hospitalization is coming up and I realize I am still angry with the ER doctor. I know I need to forgive him for my own sake. To let it go so I can move on. But I don't know how. I don't know how to stop being angry with him. I wrote a letter--and sent it to the hospital. I have journalled about it. And I have talked about it in therapy. I don't know what else to do. Any suggestions?
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SlumberKitty, the only other thing I can suggest to move on is that you tell your story to others. For my part, and having experienced a similar situation, it's been years and I'm not "over it" in terms of healing. But what does help is sharing my story with others and trying to educate doctors that this isn't the way to "help" psych patients. My work doing patient advocacy helps me heal.
Sometimes healing doesn't come from forgiving but helping to change things for others in the future.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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