Do you have a family member who can help you arrange
an appointment?
Perhaps they could go with you too.
There should be a support group in your area for people with mental health issues that can be another source of support.
I agree with the others here...it all starts with you accepting help and calling to make an appointment.
This is your call to make.
I am sorry that you are suffering so...there is help out there.
take it in baby steps... this will get better....
bizi