Its not triggering me to text her and she's not being abusive anymore by text most;y because texting is in writing which stays on my phone as a record of what she has said.But keeping in touch with her is triggering bad dreams of past abuse and her trying to kill me.One dream she stabs me with a knife,another she pushes me off a cliff another she sets fire to my house with me inside another she tries to drown me in the bath but this is because in real life she tried to make me commit suicide many times.If she hated me so much she wanted me dead can that have changed ?Does she really love me now?I don't know.I don't think so but she is being kind and supportive.It's confusing me.I don't know?