Not sure what you would say, but started smoking CBD, drinking a beer and so much have been having coming and going thougths of self harm. And yet, right now, I am not in that place. But i kinda wish I was. its like I am looking through a window and can see it all and so want to be a part of it. and yet this is so not me. see you thursday. what will i say ? what will I actually tell you? probably nothing. .....