Oh BPCyclist I'm so sorry. Concentrate on distracting yourself from those thoughts. Not forever. Are you listening to music, reading your favorite book, Binge watch a long tv series, go to bed early and get to a safe place tomorrow. Breathing exercises, Shower, anything to pass time. Take up a new hobby. I started drawing (suck at it but that's okay) anything you don't have to be good at it. PM me, Hang out here anything.