I've been really bothered by thoughts of the past lately. One problem is that i'm not busy enough. I laid off the Scrabble because i wasn't winning and was getting super angry and frustrated. Today i told myself i'll just play to block out the thoughts of the past. That will be my goal and it doesn't matter if i win or lose. At least i'm not worrying over stuff that happened in the last millennium. So that worked out well and i feel more hopeful for the future.

Tonight's my first night of my benzo taper. I'll take 0.5mg Clonazepam and 10mg Valium as a first step in transitioning over to all Valium. Wish me luck!

@bpcyclist: Welcome back! Sorry to hear you are in a state, that your friend hurt your feelings. Keeping busy is really working for me. A simple but effective strategy.