I feel fine today. I’m just super bored. Today I went to the store to buy milk. I used to work at that store from January 2014 until May 2015. I’m still friendly with the people who I worked with since you know, grocery store employees rarely change and a lot of them have been there since the 80’s. Just a joke. But anyways I’ve been avoiding them since I started transitioning. But I was with my mom and my coworker who I was great friends with at the time and who I’m Facebook friends with saw me. She yelled “is that- enter very female dead name-“ I cringed. I swear people turned around. I had to make small talk about my mask and my hat. I tried turning away so she wouldn’t see my facial hair. Could she not tell my voice was deep or what. I’ve posted a couple times on my Facebook about my transition but she has some scary political beliefs so I’d prefer not to discuss it with her. But basically today she acted like she always has with me. Which I guess is good.

But my moods are good today. I think the split dose is helping. I was a bit S last night but I did deep breathing and I used my weighted blankets and I was fine. The type of deep breathing I use is great. Today I don’t feel as clingy as I did before with my therapist. All this BS with her started right after my transition.