Elizabeth, I was you a while ago. Wondering where I would be, while the ebbs and flows of depression overwhelmed me. Truth is, time makes it easier, but it still hurts. A part of me will always wonder what if we went to counseling? But, she wasn't interested in the counseling. You cannot force another human being into what your heart wants. They must do it willingly.

I realized everything right at the wrong moment. My 7 year old daughter also wants mommy and daddy to get back together, but she will soon realize her wish is only a wish. I would give ANYTHING for one more attempt at what was my family, but remember it takes two to tango. I have heard most people tell it is for the best. But my empty and weeping heart says otherwise.

So, here is my two cents....time does make it a little easier...but even after 1.5 years, I still wonder....what if?

--sarc