I had to take my granny (I live with her and help her) to a dr appt. she set it up in thr town where my abusive stepmother currently lives. I NEVER go there. It’s a huge trigger.

So I took her to the dr three times in two weeks. By the third visit I woke up in just a Horribly foul mood for no apparent reason. I had nasty, hateful
Thoughts in my head and very angry attitude. I managed NOT to blow up and did some reflecting. I believe the reason this happened was because I was triggered by having to go there and didn’t even realize it.

Now...for the last week I’ve had nothing but bad memories of her and dreams with her and my mean step sisters in them.

I do not like this and wish it would
Just stop. I haven lived in a home with her in 17 years. My dad died. Why can’t it all just leave me alone?