Earthmama,

I don't think it's crazy at all. I shut down periodically and shut him down periodically. LOL

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constant cycle of learn to trust, open up, get afraid, shut down

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Yes, but eventually you will get afraid and open up anyway instead of shutting down. I think I was there today. Keep trying and magic doors will open!

Peace