Even though i don't know exactly what happened, i am rather confident that you're not a monster. i am sure that, whatever happened, it was something you did not want to happen and that you only want the best for your daughter at least based on what you wrote. Please don't be hard on yourself: everyone makes mistakes and we can only do our best to repair them. i don't think you did something unforgivable. Everyone deserves some empathy. Hopefully your daughter will accept and understand things with time. Please do keep writing if it helps you. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @sarcgeo, your Family, your Friends, your daughter and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!