yeah - the urges are still there but they are like gel coated with the meds. one of the parts did start to get into trouble when emptying the dish washer and pressed a knife to the arm to "see if it was numb" and it was... but the switch wasn't all the way and i got them to put the knife away.

those kinds of dreams really are eerie... you know, i forgot about the part picking up the knife until now ...that' probably where the dream came from.

4 days is a good start. we all have to start somewhere
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