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Originally Posted by whatever2013
I've been really bothered by thoughts of the past lately. One problem is that i'm not busy enough. I laid off the Scrabble because i wasn't winning and was getting super angry and frustrated. Today i told myself i'll just play to block out the thoughts of the past. That will be my goal and it doesn't matter if i win or lose. At least i'm not worrying over stuff that happened in the last millennium. So that worked out well and i feel more hopeful for the future.
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I can certainly relate. I'm glad you found a solution & some hope.
I can still get myself tied up in knots reliving the horrors of my past. In addition to having bipolar disorder & having screwed things up due to mania & prolonged depressive episodes, I'm also a recovering alcoholic! I've had to clean up many, many messes over the decades. There are days, however, when I think it's too late to mend fences & recover. I'm at the age where I should be thinking about a peaceful retirement but, instead, find myself on disability with no nest egg to count on due to shameful spending during manic episodes & drinking episodes. Maybe I'll try Scrabble the next time I'm having "one of those days." Good luck carrying on. Thanks for the hope.