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earthmama said:
but I think some part of me heard "slow down" and I responded with "shut down".

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Maybe this thread could have triggered this slow down or maybe deep down inside your mind was telling you this, which then lead to you starting this thread. The key here is that you've learned that you control the pace at which you explore and deal with your issues.