You can do it.

Take this weekend to make some changes in preparation for a job. Clean and organize your house. Buy groceries. Line up your clothes. Order a good book to read before bed. Go see your parents. You need to start a new job with clear mind and rested so make other important changes starting today

I am having de ja vu about Valentine’s Day. Last time you worried about being alone on Valentine’s Day you ended up with this jerk. Love has nothing to do with Valentine Day same as marriage has nothing to do with wedding ceremony. It’s superficial. Take Valentine’s Day out of the equation. You have a bigger fish to fry

Get ready for a new life

PS sorry about your friend. Send something to them or their family as a sign of support