I am having a major freakout moment - please help. It really hit me hard this afternoon that my husband told me all lies throughout our whole marriage about not being someone who cheats..... when he did and when he is someone who could cheat. I am beside myself with this reality... a reality or web of lies he stood on in our marriage. I cannot tell you how many times I was told he's NOT a cheater....

The massive lie is hard for me to wrap my brain around. It's a kick in the stomach and is a total mind screw. I cannot stomach that I was lied to ALL that time. How do I accept this f'ed up fact?