I’m not feeling good again. I was itching really bad and getting these hot flashes. So I got some Benadryl from Walgreens. I was kind of jealous seeing several people getting their Covid vaccines while my mom is struggling to sign up. But anyways the pharmacist said I could take Benadryl with my meds. So I took one when I got home from grocery shopping. And it made me really drowsy. And I’ve been in bed for about 1.5 hours. I need to get the motivation to do something or else I’m going to get really really sick. I’ve been lying in bed not eating or drinking much for 3 days now. I put off my haircut until next Friday. I’m not really sure what to do. I think this may just be bad PMS with a possible UTI. I have a couple more days until I get my supposed period. But I feel like I’m just wasting away because of my depression and whatever else I have going on.

But it’s like that quote from Mean Girls “I don’t hate you because you’re fat, you’re fat because I hate you.”

But it’s

“I’m not eating because I don’t feel good, and I don’t feel good because I’m not eating.”

I need to figure out something though.