I’m trying to figure out if I should go IP. I took a Benadryl and it just messed with my moods and then I took a couple Xanax and my night meds early and nothing is helping my anxiety. I’m not even anxious about anything. I’m just so anxious as a result of the meds I took. But I don’t know what a hospital can do for me. I’m not S or having any SH thoughts. I can’t contact my therapist to ask. So I’m just really confused right now. I’m trying to just lie down and relax it off. I also slept really bad last night. So maybe I’m just exhausted physically. But it’s tough right now. This is the second time this week I’ve seriously considered going IP.

Edit: I just took my 4th Xanax. So I’m at 3 milligrams. 2 1 milligram XR. 2 regular 0.5. I have never taken this much Xanax before. I am never taking Benadryl again. Visteril 50 did the same thing to me. But the 25 works well. I’m hoping to be able to get that refilled soon to get me through the next couple days.

Edit: took another Xanax. Anxiety was just out of control. I also took a melatonin. Got a bad headache. Took 2 Tylenol. I’m in bed now super drowsy. This is dangerous the way I’m living my life.