At your age, I thought of a plan to end my life. About 10 years later, I was rewarded with the birth of my daughter. You NEVER know what sparkles in life await you. It is the sparkles in life that make life worthwhile. Isn't it interesting that only on the darkest night, that the stars appear brightest? Look for those stars...Trust me, life will reward you. What rewards do you think will happen?

Make daily little goals for yourself. Little baby steps, thank you uncle bob (the movie). Compare yourself to who you are today to who you were yesterday. Not every day needs a goal, but makes little steps. It is human to learn to crawl, before we learn to walk, and then we learn to talk. So, where are you going to crawl to? I am not trying to say that you are a baby, but it is our nature to make little steps towards improvement.

My first steps were to stop spitting at that image I saw in the mirror...it then grew from there...

--sarc