I’m still laying in bed. I took a shower and did the dishes, I figure that’s enough for now. I’m feeling very guilty because I’m not doing more. Even though RS never yells at me or blames me, I’m sure he gets annoyed.

I had another VERY violent SH dream this morning right before I woke up. Shook me. Involved other people attacking each other and me huddling in my own chair attacking myself, and then crying and asking my therapist wtf she was thinking bringing me here.

I did a good job deep breathing when I got home to calm myself. It didn’t do much good when RS put his arm around me but hey, I tried.