Oh, I’m not sure. I’m practicing deep stomach breathing to help anxiety. I lost my lavender essential oil (although I think it may have been commandeered by my son).

What I need to do is be more open with RS. I’m afraid to tell him exactly what’s going on. I don’t know why. It’s just very hard for me to trust that people won’t run hard in the opposite direction if I do open up. Or lambaste me. I want to tell him, I do. But the words get stuck in my throat.

I think getting a notebook might help so I can write at home too. I don’t have to keep the pages, I can just rip them out and toss them.

I need to force myself to go to the drug store today to get some other stuff, shampoo and things, I’ll try to remember to pick one up there.