No need to Apologize. You vented and no one was truly hurt i Hope so at least. Venting is a fundamental way to cope with stress in my opinion. Please do feel Free to vent. i am available even privately if you need someone to talk to. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @indigo1015, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!