So I spent the majority of the day Wednesday and Friday in bed because of med reactions. Then Thursday I spent all day in bed because of severe depression. Tonight I decided to do something completely out of my comfort zone and go to my aunts for my moms birthday (no one knew it had been mine the day before) my uncle was there and I really wanted to see him. The main reason I actually went. His girlfriend was there too. Which I was not happy about. She really likes me but she doesn’t really understand the whole trans thing. After saying “who is this?!” She came up to me and said oh I like this! Meaning my facial hair. Then she like rubbed my hair. And who the hell does that in the first place but especially with Covid. Then she sat down and asked all these super invasive questions about how my “stuff” was going and she wasn’t being transphobic in the mean way, but she was being a bit transphobic in the unsure and wary way. Leaving my bed was a huge improvement alone. But then I had to deal with this stuff. Luckily I had my headphones and my mom whispered for me to put them on. So I did. And my mom blew out the candles on her cake. And everyone was cool about it. I did not eat or touch any food. But I am super worried about my uncles girlfriend touching my face because of Covid. I did not have a mask on. Like I’m really worried. Not even doctors have been that close to my face that I’m aware of. I just ignored her all night and I was polite to her. But Jeeze was that an awkward night at least for me and my mom.