I havent posted here in a long time......

I just want to give some positive news to survivors of childhood abuse. I have struggled after being abused emotionlly and sexually since the age of 8 - 15/16. It was a pdoc, someone my mother was having an affair with, she'd been warned about him. I had guilt keeping my mums affair from my dad ... guilt about being touched by him, molested etc .... guilt because i couldn't tell anyone in case i split him and mum up .... i felt dirty, scared, hurt, mum didn't believe me when i told her, i felt guilt for not stopping him and he went on to abuse others .... i'm 43 now and have in the last year struggled to find help living here in the UK.

Now i have a fantastic therapist who has been through the same, fantastic support online and friends and family and i am getting more confident, strong and actually think i am quite a decent person which i would never have said before.

I am just saying all this to help others believe there is a way out with working through it all, painful as it is .... if i can do it so can anyone. Time, tlc and inner strength plays a big part. I am on the road to sorting out my life. I hope this gives people hope, even if it's just one person it will have done some good.

Thankyou for listening, you are all strong because this sort of thing makes you stronger than you think. You are compassionate, kind, understanding of others and most of all if you have children you will be more aware of the dangers ..... good luck and don't let the abusers win .... NEVER ......

Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo