Scarlet, I don’t think someone else is more special. It’s probably that she has a wait list and could suddenly fit in someone who’s been waiting for therapy.

It can hurt in such a personal way and still not be about you or how she feels about at all. Your feelings can be valid and real and deserving of care but having them doesn’t prove that your reasoning is sound, much less that you know her thoughts.

Hugs. This sounds hard.