My first night on straight Valium went fine! I thought at this late date i would explain the method i am using. I thought everyone one knew it, but that's silly.

I'm withdrawing from 1mg of Clonazepam using Valium. This method is useful because they are both benzos but Valium comes in much smaller doses so the cuts can be made really small making for the most gentle way of withdrawing. (Benzos are notoriously hard to withdraw from.) Clonazepam is twenty times the strength of Valium so for the first two stages i have been substituting in Valium. The first week i took a mix of the two, to total the full dose, 0.5mg Clonazepam and 10mg Valium. This week i am on 20mg of Valium. Next week i will start decreasing the Valium by 1mg each week or two, depending on how it goes. The last stage will be at 0.5mg.

Anyways, just thought i would explain.



Sunday seems to be the worst day of the week for me and yesterday was especially troubling since it was Superbowl Sunday and i remembered my mom (who was a functional alcoholic and die-hard football fan) getting drunk and pounding on the floor and hollering at the TV when i was a kid and scaring me and making me ashamed of her. She was so out-of-control...

But in good news, today it was announced that we will be out of lockdown next week! Yay! I can get a haircut! I've booked it already!