So Sorry that you're struggling so much and so sorry about that elderly woman as well! i agree with the wise and wonderful Open Eyes. Unfortunately sometimes it happens to go through moments like this. Hopefully it will only be temporary and you will be able to find a better-paying job and be able to move out. In the meantime have you already tried to contact a therapist? That may be difficult since you're tight on money right now but if you can afford it Please do consider it. Please do try to respect yourself and others as well. Hugs. Please be kind to yourself and others. You all deserve that. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @ShadowGX, your Family, your Friends, that elderly woman and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!