Well i think it has something to do with my inability to stay married. Very dramatic relationships. Never was medicated while married.

Everyone loves my hypo mania side. Grandious thoughts, I'm going to be a famous singer songwriter. Those thoughts are starting to diminish just as I'm making progress towards the goal. Am medicated now.

I used to be depressed a lot, not so much anymore. I'm in a state of normal. Not too high not too low. I have a lot of therapy, a few friends, and mostly hang out with family mom and brother. See my daughter occassionally too.

I'm trying to date, not going well. Dating is hard and it sucks. I'm much more pickier than i used to be. I used to just marry who i was dating and divorce them when they crossed a line or just for whatever reason. Now i decide do i want to marry this person? So far no.

But i have hope one day a marriage for me will work out. But i am living a good life alone. No more guys who will drag me down.