I'm in such deep pain. My past experiences with self harm tells me that only self harm can deal with this deep pain that I am in. I don't know if that is true, just what my experience tells me. Only I know that self harm will just add another problem onto my life. It won't actually solve anything. But oh that sweet relief. Just for a little while. It seems worth it but I know that I can't listen to that. I have to stay strong. I have to fight it. Fight it. Fight it. But what happens when I run out of strength?