I was running a blade up and down my arm mostly my wrist today, trying not to SH but trying to get a little sensation, and I ended up with three little marks. Not cuts. But marks. I wasn't intending to get them. I didn't even think the blade was that sharp. I took a picture and texted a friend and asked if he thought it was SH and he said no. And then later I sent the picture to my T and asked her if she thought it was self harm and she said no. So I feel relieved. Because if I would have meant to do it, it would have been a right mess, not a few pale marks on my skin. So I am looking at it as a near miss. I need to be careful from now on what I do to try to not SH. T said I need to get rid of my blades someday. I said I know but every time I do I just get more and that maybe we could talk about that next session.