I called the hospital and asked if they had any beds open. They couldn’t give out that info. Said it changes from hour to hour. I fear for my safety at any other mental health hospital. When I was lying in bed half an hour ago with massive stomach pain and anxiety I thought this really could be something physical. So I’m going to go see the gastro doctor I was referred to.

Why would anxiety and stomach pain act up only at night? I’ve heard that ulcers can do that. Things are worse when I lie down. Everything. I ate a cucumber. I don’t know. If I lie down with the lights on things are better.