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Originally Posted by Oliviab
There is something in how your T is retreating to the clinical, being more distant and detached, that makes me wonder if this ending isn't painful for her, too. That does not make it OK, not at all. She has an ethical and human obligation to be present, caring, connected, and to make room for all of your feelings in this space up until the very end. But her reaction seems more human to me than clinical, honestly. Like she may be guarding her own heart a little here, and is also trying to "hurry up" therapy and get you to a place of independence, so she doesn't have to feel bad about ending the therapy prematurely.
Of course, that's not how it works, she's going about it all wrong. But there is something in her reactions to you, and the shift, that feels defensive and protective to me. I think it's possible she is having some FEELINGS that she has not adequately processed and that she is letting influence how she shows up. I'm not sure if that perspective helps or not, because her actions are still painful, but maybe it helps to think of them as coming from a place of anticipatory grief and loss for her, too?
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This helps a lot.
It also rings true. She first told me she was retiring a year and a half ago when I said, toward the end of a session, “it’s weird but I feel like you’re pushing me on this, like you’re trying to rush me. It’s not like you. What’s up?”
Apart from disclosing that she was retiring, she said she wanted to leave me in a good place.
Maybe we both need to acknowledge (or figure out) that you can end well without working out every little thing. That there will always be stuff and that’s the nature of life.